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Helloooooo friends!

Happy Holidays to you all!
I hope you had a great Thanksgiving and will have a great Christmas/New Year's.

distance and absence

How odd a feeling to look through journals of people who never post any more, haven't in a few years, and wonder how they are, where they are, if they are .... People that I would communicate with daily, sometimes, many times a day ... and at some point, the distance between us grew by leaps and bounds - and years.

in my life


A friend is one who knows who you are, understands where you have been, accepts what you have become, and still gently allows you to grow.
~ William Shakespeare


I had an amazing weekend.

Life is good.
I should really sit down and update on various parts of my life.
I will. But not now.
Sometimes, I think the hardest part about not having BF in my life actively is when I am down and need someone to listen to me that knows what I'm going through and knows my life situations, I don't have him. And each time, I'm again aware of this huge ... void ... in my life, where he used to be. I know that it won't last forever. I know that it will fade, and likely, someone else will take that spot ... but it sure sucks for now.

Five weeks yesterday.

Apr. 29th, 2011

I am so amazingly, completely and indescribably tired of people letting me down.
Seriously. How do I manage to find every single fucktard on the planet?

I'm so disappointed right now.

I can't even begin to articulate it.

Jan. 13th, 2011

The hardest is knowing. Knowing I'm going to have to step back, to let go. To ease up. I imagine that knowing I'm going to have to is harder than the actual doing, because at least in the doing there is action.

Knowing is simply waiting, really. Nothing is moving forward or retreating ...

It's like being stuck in a muddy rut on an old country road watching things go past and life go on around me while I ... sit. Stuck. And while I love the country, I want to see it from somewhere other than my stomach in the mud.


well said

Trust me with your body, and know I won’t judge, but keep your heart closed to me because, because why? ~ Katie West